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Friday, 20 August 2004
Well,..Life is grand ain't it!? *growls*
Mood:
 hug me
Now Playing: My life: The tale of sorrow that it has become
Topic: Shisty Business
Well I've been extremely upset lately, And to top it all off I broke my wrist good and proper last night, I was rewiring the ceiling fan at my house and i was up on a tall ladder in the middle of the living room, I got electricuted and fell..It's lovely,..ain't it?! Well I must go, heh,...I'm really exhausted...!
Posted by shadow2713
at 7:10 AM
Monday, 12 July 2004
We have reached the end of history, The only thing left is Cosmetic Changes.
Mood:
 caffeinated
Now Playing: EXHAUSTION-in great amounts!
JAVA GOOD!! SLEEP BAD!! ME HYPER!! Hello, I'm kinda "watching over" a good friend of mine right now, his name is Billy and holy shit he's a wreck right now. I was at my friend Adrians house last night (who is Billy's brother) But anyway I was helping Adri take care of his baby Draike who is just the sweetest little thing And Billy comes into the house with tears streaming down his cheeks and he's shaking and just a mess,...After we got the boys to bed, (Billy's son is there for a week) We walked to my house and we had to keep stopping because Billy kept breaking down to the point of having his legs get weak,..When we got there he at like 3:00 he kept me up till 6:00 talking and then he fell asleep in my room so i went out and tried to sleep on the couch for a while,..Well I'm up now for a while but I imagine I will be heading to bed soon, Billy's still out cold so I'll sleep in my uncles room which is basically "forbidden" But I need to sleep right? So thats whats kinda been up with me I guess, Toodles!!!
Posted by shadow2713
at 8:11 AM
Updated: Monday, 12 July 2004 8:13 AM
Monday, 21 June 2004
Been a while Aye?
Mood:
hug me
Well ello all,
I've had an intresting time and boy howdy it's been quite a while! I was homless for quite a while, then I went to the St. Alphonsous mental ward they fixed me up quite nicely. I was planning on staying there for quite a while but Mr. Perfect<--that my uncles Lawrence, anyway he decided to come get me life's been pretty groovy since then i guess. I am loveless with loves lost. Basically i in a sense lost the one i love but she's got a new lad now, and i heard from very reliable sources that he treats her real good, miles better than i could've so i can't complain. I'm home by meself for a while, maybe a month or two, Good thing my uncle left plenty of money, I'll put it to good use too, I'm a hell of a good cook. not to boast or brag or anything but my food has to be close to the best. ;) Well I better be going got things to do people to see...Toodles!!!
Posted by shadow2713
at 7:58 AM
Saturday, 6 December 2003
12/06
another day another ton of miseries..... I feel like my time may be running up,I'm absolutely useless right now. Maybe i've already served my purpose in life maybe there's nothing left for me here and i have a job somewhere else i don't know stuff is just fucked
Posted by shadow2713
at 11:40 AM
12/05
my depression is still growing constantly worse....Joey's in Jail, he got in a big fight and got locked up well i don't feel up to typing at this point so bye
Posted by shadow2713
at 11:27 AM
Monday, 1 December 2003
December 1st
Well another day ful of miseries, I wept today for many minutes, wept for man and for all his sorrows wept for the living wishing they too understood the beauty of death and also silently wish that most of them were dead but they don't all deserve to be beautiful. I feel even more dead inside than usual which is very odd. Still no word from Joey it's been twenty seven days now and I feel hollow.Shay has to have been reading this because the last tyme I saw her she was acting slightly differently towards me. oh well she needed to know...well I feel the depression from earlier resurfacing again so I must go..bye
Posted by shadow2713
at 4:43 PM
Sunday, 30 November 2003
Life is hard nobody comes into life knowing exactly what to do or what to expect,and nobody has a perfect life. All of us no matter who we are or where we come from on this our planet goes through hardships difficulties and we all face challenges. Nobody gets out free. We all have reason to be here...things to accomplish ...we all aquire certain skills through life,which we must use to accomplish goals that we set for ourselves, everyone's life has meaning nobody was put on earth without a purpose everyone is needed, nobody dies unloved everyone cares about at least one person nobody knows for sure where we go when we die or how we got here until we die, everyone is born to die.
Posted by shadow2713
at 1:46 PM
Updated: Sunday, 30 November 2003 1:49 PM
11/30....yet again
Well I might as well tell who the lass I love is because this log is accessable through my profile,It's Shay She might know that I like her but DOESN'T know the full extent of it, and if she reads this she'll know, but not understand because to understand how much she means to me would mean walking in my shoes and whatnot and thats just not possible so here it is...she is the one that I love, and the only one lately who has made me feel alive...
Posted by shadow2713
at 1:34 PM
Updated: Sunday, 30 November 2003 1:35 PM
11/30
The girl I like got her lad to wear make-up I guess, I bet she'll never look at me twice again. I talked to her earlier on the net, she kept going on and on about it...She has a HUGE thing for guys wearing make-up, I mean REALLY HUGE. It's like my still growing infactuation with death.I've been more depressed lately than the usual and it does NOT suprise me at all, Still no word from Joey, and me, still worried as all hell. My Shay thinks he might have gotten AIDS and that he could be possibly barricading himself afraid to tell anyone and terrified at what people he knows would think. I bit the girl that I love but with only one fang so I wouldn't upset her lad (who is quite a jealous one)well I should go got to go and get further more depressed...so bye
Posted by shadow2713
at 1:29 PM
Updated: Sunday, 30 November 2003 1:31 PM
Friday, 28 November 2003
11/28
Well all it's a rather boredom filled day... I've been losing it lately....completely losing it. My life has been royal hell. My ex, Joey was in Alaska ans nobody's heard from him since the fifth... that's twenty three days and keeps growing more and more unbearable so unbearable that the thought of him being in any way not okay has brought me down to the point of drinking and I can't stop, when I drink I can temporarily forget and not think about it.I worry about him a lot, his life is very hard, and a lot of bad things seem to somehow happen to him. On another note, I'm in love with a girl,...not just any girl, not just one I can shrug off if she doesn't notice me....No this girl is somthing special, she has no clue what I see in her, When I look at her I see hope, a chance of happiness,..I don't have to keep looking at the dark side of humanity when she's around because I don't have to... she makes me feel needed and for the few hours I get to spend with her I don't feel dead inside anymore I feel alive ...I just wish she had feelings for me, My heart sinks when I think of how out of my reach she is,....my chances with her are and always will be impossible...
Posted by shadow2713
at 12:06 PM
Updated: Friday, 28 November 2003 12:49 PM
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